What Have I Done

He asked me if I knew what I was doing. I told him I sleepwalk through whatever it is I'm doing, unconscious, because it's the only way I can survive another day. He told me I shouldn't be so numb. I told him life shouldn't be so boring. He said life is only boring if you make it that way. I said that was why I was doing this. Seconds later I was dead. I can't sleepwalk through anything now because everything is horrifying.